Don't break just yet.

I've been unemployed for over a month now, and I have never been more stressed out than I am now. Working throughout all of college shuffling through school projects and nine-hour shifts were nothing compared to the responsibilities that are bestowed upon me now. I feel so useless, and I feel like I am falling behind.

Graduate school is always a path to follow, but saying it is much easier. I need to sacrifice a lot to even be considered by the schools, and my grades weren't top notch to begin with. I would love to obtain a Masters, but I wouldn't even know what field to choose to start.

As for a career, I've been searching. And believe me, I am registered to over 5 career finder sites. Nothing intrigues me, and for the ones that show a little hope, I fail at their interviews. Although I am a newly hired tutor, it is still Part-time, and it will not fulfill my responsibilities around here. The bills are coming up and my accounts are reaching its end, I am scrimmaging for cash. I hate being in this situation.

I am a jealous person, but not for the typical monetary things. I am jealous of my friends' lifestyles. I can not afford to go out everyday, and I can not simply just leave my house whenever I want. My mother often gives me lectures about how I am irresponsible, and how I should stay home more and handle family issues. I get the idea of having to watch over the house because I am the only man in the house now, but when I look at my friends and the amount of freedom they have, I get envious. My mother doesn't work, and she doesn't drive, so it's tough for her to stay busy at home all the time. I see my friends stressed out about love and about school. You know, the typical things that a person in their early twenties should worry about. I often think it is unfair that I have all these extra burdens, but I can't break just yet.

I am done complaining, everyone has their own problems, and this is mine.