Flashback

I was re-reading old messages today, and I came across this one. I've never had so much hatred for someone before, but this guy made it pretty high on the list.  Looking back at it now, it sounded so foolish.  For better or for worse, this man changed my life.

David,
I know you must hate me right now and I understand that. I pushed someone away from you that seriously cared deeply about you. I have suffocated her so much that she told me she feels like she can never talk to you again. She misses your friendship and she always tells me how happy you two were. It was my self-fish actions that caused her to push you away. You do not have to forgive me for what I have done. She told me that I can't fix my mistakes and that it's my fault you don't talk to her anymore. And I know that now. It was stupid of me to do. But I know a part of her wishes she had your friendship still. She met one of your family members the other day too and she felt so horrible b/c she had not talked to you for so long. David just please when you read this, call her and catch up or even have starbucks together anything. Just she misses you.  I do not think she ever told you, but I am a horrible psycho person. Who suffocated her. Just please consider it... She tells me of how horrible she was for doing that to you, and it was my fault. And I want you to know it was not her it was me. I forced her to stop. I deserve the hatred.

No one has ever brought me down so low, 
but you managed to do it in a blink of an eye.
You then asked for help because you saw it collapsing. And it did.