Day Ten

Day Ten: One confession.

I liked you, a lot, actually.

Day Nine

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

1.╭∩╮(o `︿´ o)╭∩╮

2. <@:)

Don't break just yet.

I've been unemployed for over a month now, and I have never been more stressed out than I am now. Working throughout all of college shuffling through school projects and nine-hour shifts were nothing compared to the responsibilities that are bestowed upon me now. I feel so useless, and I feel like I am falling behind.

Graduate school is always a path to follow, but saying it is much easier. I need to sacrifice a lot to even be considered by the schools, and my grades weren't top notch to begin with. I would love to obtain a Masters, but I wouldn't even know what field to choose to start.

As for a career, I've been searching. And believe me, I am registered to over 5 career finder sites. Nothing intrigues me, and for the ones that show a little hope, I fail at their interviews. Although I am a newly hired tutor, it is still Part-time, and it will not fulfill my responsibilities around here. The bills are coming up and my accounts are reaching its end, I am scrimmaging for cash. I hate being in this situation.

I am a jealous person, but not for the typical monetary things. I am jealous of my friends' lifestyles. I can not afford to go out everyday, and I can not simply just leave my house whenever I want. My mother often gives me lectures about how I am irresponsible, and how I should stay home more and handle family issues. I get the idea of having to watch over the house because I am the only man in the house now, but when I look at my friends and the amount of freedom they have, I get envious. My mother doesn't work, and she doesn't drive, so it's tough for her to stay busy at home all the time. I see my friends stressed out about love and about school. You know, the typical things that a person in their early twenties should worry about. I often think it is unfair that I have all these extra burdens, but I can't break just yet.

I am done complaining, everyone has their own problems, and this is mine.

Day Eight

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

1. Your scent.
2. Your height.
3. Your voice.

This challenge is getting lame.

Driveway Adventures

It is very common to find Glenn loitering around my driveway after midnight. However, tonight was a more productive session. We decided to use stencils and spray paint on a huge wooden plank. It was fun, and it marks the first of many Driveway Adventures to come!

Day Seven

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1. Being unreasonably lazy. From avoiding to get a job to not cleaning up their rooms.
2. Being shallow. Always talking about materialistic things and sees things in one direction only.
3. Having a poor sense in fashion. How she dresses surprisingly creates the whole vibe for me, haha.
4. Having a poor sense of humor. If she laughs at the things that I find repulsive, or vice versa, then it will never work, haha.

Day Six

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).



My mother, my three nephews and my niece.

Day Five

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

1. Choosing Cal Poly Pomona over everywhere else.
2. Working at the Swap Meet.
3. Learning guitar at the age of 19, and not sooner.
4. Letting some people go because of my pride.
5. Ignoring morals and falling for certain temptations.
6. Being so quiet and shy when the moment comes.

Day Four

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. My direction in life, whether which career I'll land
or if I should go to graduate school.
2. If I just give up everything right now and pursue in music,
how far would I make it?
3. I need to meet new people, I want to get to know someone
from scratch all over again.
4. I often wonder how Lilli-anne, Calvin, Tristen, and Taylor
will be when they grow up.
5. My father.
6. Who I would gladly give up my life for, and there's a few.
7. Which one of my friends would miss me the most if I was to disappear?

Day Three

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Takes me to a show.
2. Has a beautiful voice.
3. Knows how to play a musical instrument.
4. Tries to communicate with my mother.
5. Introduces me to all of her friends and family.
6. Comes with me to Europe.
7. To hear her friends saying, "I've heard a lot about you."
8. Lets me pay for her dinner, while she pays for my lunch.

Think Together

I am now a Substitute Program Leader.

Day Two

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. I am six foot tall, weighing in at 155 lbs.
2. I am 22 years old, born and raised in Upland.
3. I have a bachelors degree from Cal Poly Pomona.
4. I played varsity basketball for Chino High School.
5. I love the sounds of an acoustic guitar and a grand piano.
6. I am independent, but I'm also too locked up to myself.
7. I try to act as this self-righteous person that I am not.
8. I do care about what others think of me sometimes, sadly.
9. I also have the coolest friends around.

Day One

I have been noticing these "challenges" on Tumblr and they remind me of the myspace bulletin surveys. My blog will be booked for the next ten days.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. You have been through so much, and it seems as if you are all I have left to be kept sane in this world. I will never do anything to hurt you nor I will never let anyone hurt you. I can not ask for a stronger mother, I love you.

2. You are so gay sometimes, I'm surprise that you actually have a girl for a girlfriend, haha. Thanks for being there for a majority of my spontaneous spending buddy. Even if half of those were a waste of money, the other half was worth it.

3. You and I will eventually get big with our dual acoustic band. It's really settling to see you going for your masters in Chapman. You're gonna do great things man.

4. I wish you the best of luck in your AmeriCorps venture. Although the imagery of you being dispatched to Denver kills me with laughter everytime, I am still happy for you. You are the reliable one in our group, you know that?

5. I meant every word when I asked you to be my little sister that day. For reasons I can't explain, I feel really comfortable around you. Even though you dislike conveying your problems to me, I just hope you feel the same way.

6. I'm waiting for December 11th buddy. It will be a great three weeks, like always. You know, about a month ago, I gave joining the Air Force some serious consideration. I probably felt the same way you felt when you decided to join. I seemed lost and useless, and I wanted to leave. Either way, get out and travel man!

7. As you always remind me, I used to "stalk" you on myspace. Who would've guessed from that one message I sent you, we would be good friends till now? I can't stress how much you deserve to not worry about what others think about you, but I know you can't help it, and you never listen to me, haha. But take it from me, you are a overall great person.

8. You seem to know the most about me, but yet we've known each other the shortest. I haven't seen you for over a week now, what's going on? Why aren't you at my driveway and why aren't we talking about our problems? And yes, this paragraph is about you, Glenn, so no need to ponder, haha.

9. I haven't seen you in years, but I think about you from time to time. I hope you are staying out of trouble. We had our falling out, but it was fun while it lasted. I drove by your house the other day, and the pure thought of you father still scares me.

10. Hi, why do we do these things to each other? I know you aren't enjoying this either, but it still happens. I used to think these things were fate, but I don't believe in those things anymore. We had our chances, but maybe I'm just talking on my behalf. You are a sweet person, time just wasn't on our side.

Time is running out.

We can only be children for so much longer. I need to man up, and I need to find and take what is mine.

I had a dream yesterday of an ex-relationship of mine. It was a replication of an actual night that had happened a few years ago. It was nighttime, and we were at our high school parking lot. I drove to the middle of it all and parked. We were leaning against my trunk, eating In-N-Out burgers, sharing one drink. The stadium lights from the football field were bright, casting a dark shadow over the surrounding streets. It was just the two of us, with nothing but the sound of music from my car stereo.

I woke up. I've fucked up.

Salute your shorts.

The combination of nature and good friends will always put me in a good mood. These past three days was a success.















Well I found the buns.
What's wrong with being a pervert?

Pfeiffer Big Sur

I have been waiting for this trip for quite some time now. A few weeks ago, It looked like I wasn't going to make it to this event, but things have changed a lot since then. I kind of wish I had booked it for 3 nights instead of 2. Either way, this will be an amazing trip. I'll be back Friday night.

Aim for the bushes

After coming back to New York from the trip to Toronto, we had a day's rest before we were off to this gorgeous city. We were in Boston, Massachusetts.

The border you'd want to cross.

This place was gorgeous. Welcome to Toronto, Canada.

Sorry, I travel alone.

The last time I was here, it was mainly sightseeing. It was much more mellow this time around. I was officially deemed a New Yorker.

I have a lot to say.

I'll save it for later. Interestingly enough, It feels like I had been gone a long time. The people I've met, the places I've walked by, to the strange occurrences that I've witnessed, I am growing more comfortable with the idea of being lost.



I'll blog more about the trip and the horrific flight in future posts.

The dog days are over.

11 hours spent on the plane.
6 hours spent on the subway.
20 hours spent on the bus.

What are the odds that I would actually bump into you?

The odds were in my favor, when I didn't even want it anymore.

I'm coming home.