Just say it.

"...ok, im going to just go ahead and say it."

"what?"

"sometimes...being old friends is hard.
I mean, timing is everything."

"yeah.."

"I...."

Connect the bridges

Your friends are a huge part of your life, especially when you believed you have met your other half. A relationship will be hard to endure if both ends exclude themselves from their friends. You should know what I mean by now. I've told you countless times, but you just shrug it off. It makes me sad that you don't show the effort in wanting us to meet her. Whenever I meet someone new and significant in my life, I always have them meet my friends when the time arises. That way I could see if they would get along, and to see what they think from a third person's perspective. There are things that will make me blind in seeing the flaws or potential problems, but that's what my friends are for. If you keep it up and never bring this person around, I will guarantee that we will start having nonchalant feelings towards her just like her friends have that feeling towards you now. You are letting this one slowly become your first relationship all over again, and I am sure you don't want that. In all seriousness, it is all up to you if you want your friends to be her new friends as well.

But overall, don't think too much about anything else, you have my word that this will all work out in the end.

Sixth Grade

Hours of playing Final Fantasy 7 and watching first-generation Pokemon, I have traveled back in time to the year 1999.

Phantom of the Opera tonight.

"If it's okay with you."

I haven't done a photoshoot in a long while now. This time, I was fortunate to have more than one subject.

Since the music began

Must you dance every dance
with the same fortunate man?
You have danced with him since the music began.
Won't you change partners and dance with me?

Must you dance quite so close
with your lips touching his face?
Can't you see I'm longing to be in his place?
Won't you change partners and dance with me?

Ask him to sit this one out and while you're alone,
I'll tell the waiter to tell him he's wanted on the telephone.
You've been locked in his arms ever since heaven-knows-when.
Won't you change partners and then,
you may never want to change partners again.

Prepare for trouble.

I've been re-watching season one of Pokemon. I'm half way through.

I forgot that season one had 84 episodes!

I guess hanging out with these kids are making me become one again.

An oldie revisited

Fire

Briamy Bash

Yesterday was an eventful day. It started off horrible and probably the worst day I've had since a long while. I was in a bad mood from then on. Then we all got ready for Brian and Amy's birthday event at Club United.

A good majority of us had our hesitations on how this clubbing event will turn out, haha. Nonetheless, it was the most fun I've had in a long while.

Let's catch up.

So I recently shaved my head to an all-around size one.
I'm satisfied with the result.

Depending on how the audience takes it, I might keep this length for a long while.

I've also started working out to P90X the past two weeks.
I'm satisfied with the results as well.

I've been watching over 23 seven-year-olds and they are wasting my youth away. I can never get them to all shut up for more than 3 seconds. What am I doing wrong!? But, however, one girl said that I was the best teacher ever, so I'm alright, haha.

I'm in the middle of a week of birthdays, and it's been awhile since I attended to clubs and parties.

I'm now contemplating about getting a piercing, but that's a long ways away.

I have a huge debt yet to be paid off, and my first paycheck is still weeks away.

Phantom of the Opera in two weeks.

Taking the proper steps.

Goodbye!

Mr. David

That's what they call me at room 22. My class full of 2nd and 3rd graders, and there are 20 to 25 of them. Full of unburned energy and attitude, they are a hard bunch to control. I can't give out any signs of weakness and vulnerability, or else they will walk all over me.

Not all of them are wild and disrespectful of course, there are a handful of them that are absolutely adorable. One girl wanted me to sit next to her while she reads me a short story she wrote. Two students asked if I was married, then asked if I had a girlfriend, then asked if I was available, haha. Kids are devious, but still pure at heart. I'm happy to be surrounded by them.

This is my curious case.

I am often curious to see how much my friendship weighs in value from the perspective of my friends. A lot of you give off that nonchalant emotion that simply fills me with frustration. It might be unintentional, and I might be acting immature, but I am doing much more than any of you in keeping whatever closeness we have.

I have also been ill-tempered lately when I plan out events. People take it for granted and they only acknowledge my actions if something goes wrong. We all celebrate when it all goes according to plan, but I am the one to blame when something goes unfortunate.

This message is to a lot of people, not to one person, or to one group. I usually do not say or view these things about my friends, but my mind has been all over the place lately, and none of you are helping. I am disappointed in myself in writing this.

I wanted to leave a lot earlier, but that would've spoiled the vibe for a rest of the group. I stayed as long as I could.

Too keep it simple, if you simply do not care about my hospitality towards our relationship, then I will no longer waste my fucking time.

Autumn leaves

Lets hope this that month will turn things around. September is a very cozy time of year. The fair comes back to town, the weather is picture-perfect, and there are lots of birthdays to be celebrated. Speaking of birthdays, times are different this year around. I won't be able to spend that much compared to last year, so I am apologizing in advance.

I start my new job tomorrow.

Plans for September:

• L.A Fair
• Phantom of the Opera
  
• Find a full-time job
• Celebrate 5 birthdays