My credit score is 726.

That's actually a pretty good score considering the highest possible is 850.

I just booked two rooms for Vegas at the lovely New York, New York Hotel. I am all over New York this summer for some reason. But either way, that move caused me to be in debt now. I intend to maintain a high credit score for the rest of my young adult life, so guys, please help me out. Happy early birthday Glenn, you lucky little asshole. I already made the initiative to get this plan going now, so you guys better not fail me. With the trip to the actual New York City next week, I'm scavenging for financial stability. What have I done? What did I get myself into?

The man in the mirror.

One of my childhood idols died today, what a shame. No one will ever come close to having the life he had, let alone understanding it. Many people might dislike him; for what he did to himself and to others, but it guess it happens when a human being lives without ever having friends, having true friends. It is such a sad story, but that is what makes him a legend in the end.

I had trouble sleeping today. I laid in bed for a good two hours, pondering about random and useless thoughts. I guess my mind grew tired and I was able to sleep at around 6AM, resulting with a eerily dream. This dream was vivid, and the emotions were real. I don't believe in the superstition of having bad luck for telling people your dreams. This is what I could remember from it..

It was around nighttime and I was driving alone. In a quick moment, a very bright flash covered my eyes and I couldn't see anything anymore. I wake up to find myself located in a hospital bed, with a few people crying beside me, crying for me. I can't recall who those people were, but I think they were close to me. I asked a lot of questions and I was anxious to know what happened. It appeared that I was apart of a devastating car crash, leaving half of my face disfigured. I didn't cry, and I didn't feel any pain; I didn't want to stay in the hospital any longer. As I got out of the bed and made my move towards the door, three friends in which I do remember very vividly showed up. They gave me their sympathetic hugs and I sprinted through the hallway right after. I managed to find my way out the hospital, finding myself in a garden. My heart was racing and I was furious to find myself in such a condition. I eventually sat down in the middle of the garden, on the grass, unwrapping the bandages off my face. Never being able to get a look on how my appearance was altered, I didn't seem to care. I just sat there for a long time, and it was peaceful. Some friends were yelling my name out, telling me to come back. Before I could even answer, I woke up to the sound of my alarm.

All my loving.

The beach was fun today.













So many places to see, so little time.
A list of cities for the summer.
-New York
-Philadelphia
-Washington D.C.
-Las Vegas
-San Francisco
-Santa Cruz
-Big Sur

I had three father figures.

I missed out on having a sibling around my age.

I wish I had a little sister.

Happy Father's Day

Go out and get Dad something nice, even if you don't talk to him anymore. I'm sure it would melt his heart.

Nobody raise your voices.

I have dreamed of this before.
Something was falling and I was trying to catch it.
Who are you to tell me otherwise?
Faith has it that you will be forever doomed.
Your trials are worthwhile, but my visions are correct.
I couldn't catch it.
This place is flooded with your remnants, love.
Who are you to tell me otherwise?
Que voy hacer, je ne sais pas.
I have dreamed of this before.
The ending is always the same.
You are in need of help but you aren't the one falling.
Who are you to tell me otherwise?
My mind is heavy, and I am losing balance.
I couldn't catch it.
I was falling.

Start spreading the news

My mother and I are going to New York on the week of the 4th of July.

"Start spreading the news, I'm leaving today. I want to be a part of it, New York, New York."

It has already been three years.

I graduated from high school three years ago, unbelievable.













Congratulations, Hannah.

How unexpected of me.

I was looking forward to yesterday night, I wanted all my friends to have a good time. I don't think I accomplished that goal. And not only that, I have forgotten how I react when I drink too much. It has been too long apparently. A lot of good friends showed up today and I was happy; happy enough to just drink whenever the chance was given. I haven't drank this much in about two years, and I knew exactly why I limited myself for that long.

I made a friend worry today because I was acting reckless, I am sorry. It has been a long time since I was intoxicated at such a level, and everything came back. I cried on my drive home, and it was a mess. I couldn't bare to go home, so I went back to some friends. I was embarrassed, and I couldn't control myself. I dampened the mood for everyone rather quickly and I hated myself for doing that. At least it didn't happen at the table in front of everyone. Thanks Glenn, didn't expect myself to lean on your shoulders today.

It has been some time since I have cried for you. Damn, what a mess I caused today.

We are on the big screen!

Justin, Brian, Waldo, and I attended an Angels game today. It was an awesome experience. Being my first time, I was overwhelmed by the vibe and adrenaline the stadium produced. This was all possible because of Justin's father's amazing connection. He managed to get us four free tickets, along with a V.I.P parking pass. Little did we know, the tickets were actually front row seats right between homebase and the dug-out. We caught sight of ourselves being on the big screen over twenty times. This was possible because every time a batter walks up the camera would zoom in on him and we would be in the background everytime! We all managed to get border-line drunk, making it hard not to laugh and scream, while also trying hard not to buy their overly priced nachos and fries, which we failed. Good times were had nonetheless, and I was handed four free admissions to The Spearmint Rhino after the game! haha.





















































The Angels defeated the Padres 11 to 6 and fireworks filled the sky.

I wish i was bulletproof.

Summer vacation has finally come. Do you want to be apart of mine?

I don't know why, but this preceding summer seems more worthwhile than the others years before. Maybe because it is a fresh summer comparing to last years mournful one. I am expecting memorable events to occur during these three months and I am not going to let anything ruin it. Three trips have been up for planning, with one of them being my most anticipated trip ever since last year.

1. Roadtrip through California with Lawrence (with a few members pending).
2. Las Vegas with Brian, Glenn, and Andrew (apparently there's more people going now).
   
3. Flying somewhere with mom, we still have yet to choose a destination.

I am not limiting myself to just those three events of course. So please, don't be stubborn and afraid to give me a call to hang out. That has been one of my growing pet-peeves lately; people that don't initiate the phone call to hang out when they are obviously bored. It gives out a signal that I am not even worthy of a friend to be called for company.

But either way, this summer will be good. And you can be apart of it if you wish.

Double bogie all the way.

Golf! I regret the past 3 years for not playing such a sport. It's obvious that I am quickly growing an addiction towards it. It is only a matter of time until I spend a bulk of my future income in the equipment, which is a constant negative habit of mine. In the meantime, my goal is to break 100. Let us catch tee time one of these days!





























In other news, it is my last day of school tomorrow as a Junior in college. Almost there...

If work permits.

Work was sentimental today. The new store has been opened for over a month now and everyone is getting acquainted with the new routine pretty well. Our store manager, Larry, took a week off for surgery and he came back in today. He lost a noticeable amount of weight, and he looked weak. It was rather depressing seeing him so limited in doing heavy work. I remember him interviewing me two years ago when I wore my Sport Chalet uniform into the store, haha.

Later at work, I had a nice talk with a customer about golf. He was telling me stories of how he started golfing and how he purchased his first set of golf clubs at this store...10 years ago. He then took a nostalgic look around the store, his hand running through his hair, and said, "man..... things have changed..." He was in his early 50's, and I don't think he was just talking about the store either.

I'm ready to call it quits at Dick's Sporting Goods. I am contributing to much for them to be only repaying me with minimum wage. I was thinking of where to migrate to, and I think I pinpointed one place. Wells Fargo would be a lovely new place to settle down.

I'm younger than that now.

Words can't explain as to how much I miss the years of 2006 and 2007. I had a talk with a friend today, and it had me reminiscing...a lot. I sincerely miss quite a few people, and even though I may still be talking to you now, I miss the old you. Words were spoken back then like wedding vows, they were meaningful and they were beautiful. Where did everyone go and why did everyone leave? Things were so practical, and I liked that. My house was actually a home and my family actually lived in it. Birthdays were celebrated and games were played because everyone was home; not away for school, work, or even the air force. Friendships were formed through mutual friends, connecting the edges together. Then everything left. And the year 2007 ended.

I miss you so fucking much.

I was so much older then, I'm younger than that now.

There are fishes in the sea

and they are staring at me, whoa.

This past weekend was very diverse. I witnessed live Korean soap opera at Yoko Yoko Sushi Bar on Friday night. That whole place was occupied by Koreans and they all somehow knew each other one way or another. I was under the spell of the devil's herbs, making the episode twice as exciting.

I celebrated Waldo's graduation on Saturday night with Justin and Brian Rocke. We consumed liquor and beer at my place and loitered until it was time to bowling. It was a good time because I rarely get to hang out with those guys all together. I won all three rounds by the way!

On the dusk of Sunday, I got a text from Christine wanting to go to Prado Park after I get off of work. We managed to make it before the sun left us and we had a mini photo shoot. The weather was nice and everything was very green. The night did not end there. Brian, Glenn, and Andrew came over with the idea of playing Monopoly. The game was surprisingly short with Andrew taking the game. This was due to the awesome trade Brian conducted with Andrew earlier in the game, good one Brian.