I don't need much more.

Courtney came over today for a few hours. Christmas Eve went by a little better as I set the phonograph to play the Christmas vinyl she brought for me. We caught up with random facts and old memories, and planned a little bit more for my birthday on Monday.

She brought up a relevant story about her friend in Oklahoma. Her friend lost a loved one two years ago, and most of her friends disappeared soon after. Courtney told me the girl's description of feeling helpless and being dependent, and asked if I understood what she meant. I did, and I still do. I vividly remember how horrible those months were after my father left. Many of my close friends vanished; maybe because they were too afraid of how to endure the pain with me, or maybe they didn't know how to make me feel better. But for that girl and I both, we weren't looking for advices, we weren't looking for inspiration words to move on, we just needed you guys to be there with us.

But I forgave you guys, because it's not an ideal situation to be in with a friend. It was hard knowing what were the right things to do or say. Just remember that avoiding us all together is the worst thing you can ever do.

Blarg, I need to start sleeping earlier.

Merry Christmas everyone.

-Wavid