Hipstamatic

Night Two

With only three hours of sleep, I was wide awake by 7AM. I was dehydrated and was still feeling heated in the head, so I just laid in bed playing on my Itouch. As the day progressed, I was having negative thoughts on how my stomach was going to react that night.

Night Two: This night was long awaited because of the three man pact that was made during Ashraf's birthday. Glenn, Lawrence, and I did a three-way double pinky swear (intense), promising that we will get completely trashed on my birthday. I was getting nervous, and it was 8PM already. Lawrence picked me up and went to Brian's house. There, we pregamed a little bit with Four Lokos as they watched me open the gifts.

We left for the Krazy Drum at 9PM, and there we met up with some familiar faces. We ended up with a group of 15, so Alexis and Edwin tried their best to get us the best tables and accommodations, and they did a great job. I told those two to order what they think was the best and they came back with two trays full of liquor, wine, beer, coke, and sprite. It was intimidating, but we destroyed it in a matter of an hour. Old faces that I haven't seen in quite some time made surprising visits as well as new friends. Alexis was thoughtful enough to burn a cd for the bar to play, just so we wouldn't be stuck with Korean music for the whole night, haha. As for what I can remember, I believe almost everyone was drinking, it was a beautiful site to see, lol.

At about midnight, it was time to return back to Brian's house for more drinking. Only a handful were able to make it to that, which was expected and understandable. This is where the Sausage Mozzarella that I boxed to go yesterday came into play. Jen, Jocelyn, Megan, and I devoured it. After smashing our faces with food, it was time to get more alcohol. Amy sacrificed a lot for driving, so it was time for her to catch up, haha. Megan, Amy and I went to 7-11 and got more beer and Four Lokos. We returned with smiling faces awaiting, and we proceeded to play board games. First was Apples to Apples, a game that is very witty and insightful, things that drunk people lack, lmao. After attempting several rounds, we realized we weren't making any progress, so we proceeded to Who? What? Where?. Imagine Pictionary on steroids, a game where if you can't draw, you are going to look like a fool. We all couldn't stop laughing on several drawings and guesses, it helped the alcohol digest in my system. At about 4AM, Ashraf, Jocelyn, and Jen bid their farewells and drove home safely. Lawrence, Amy, Megan and I spent the night at Brians.

Woken up to "what the fuck just happened?" by Lawrence, it was 10:30AM. After the five of us shared stories of what happened last night and taking a group photo, Lawrence and I left and he dropped me off.



Drinking Index:

• 1/3 of a Four Loko
• Wine/Soju/Sprite mixture shots(x4)
  
• Soju shots (x3)
• A "special" mystery drink
• Glasses of beer (x2)
• Hipnotic shots (x2)

Gifts:

• I now have three wonderful wallets, thanks to Amy, Megan, and Jocelyn.
• Amy also got me a scarf!
• Megan got me me a case for my slr camera, accompanied with a depressing birthday card.
• Brian got me a leather fingerless glove.
• Ashraf got me a cotton fingerless glove.
• Lawrence got me a dress shirt with the price tag.
• Jocelyn also got me a bowl made from a warped vinyl.

I would just like to conclude that this has been a very memorable birthday for me. This year hasn't been that great of a year, but this is a damn great way to end it. For all the bills and tabs that were paid for the past two days, I thank you all for chipping in more than you had to. Thanks for the drivers, thanks for showing up, thanks for the pictures, and thanks for a good time. Splitting it up into two nights was a good idea.

Donkey Boner!!! I am now 23 years young.

Until next time.

Night One

My goodness, I don't have the slightest clue where to start with this entry. It makes sense to just start from the beginning.

My birthday was celebrated in two separate nights, two separate locations, with two separate group of friends.

Night One:
The night was started off with dinner at Roman Cucina with my high school and college family. The place was decoratively pleasing and the Martinis were cheap :). I barely touched my Sausage Mozzarella due to the precautionary measures of the amount of alcohol I was to intake soon after. I boxed that dinner to go, and that idea surely paid off later haha. We left dinner and proceeded to walk to Palapas Grill Bar down the street. There we met with more friends and drinking ensued. We played a game called Cheers 21 if I remembered correctly. It involves counting numbers with new hilarious rules after each round.

As the party of ten were playing, my ex co-workers from Chicks/Dicks Sporting Goods arrived. After a few more drinks, we decided to move to a new bar. We all decided to head down to Heroes, a five minute walk at most. This place was much bigger, and much more lighted up. This is where I was teasing my limit with keeping the alcohol in my stomach, as Lawrence handed me my second free birthday shot of the day from the bartenders. Peanuts were thrown and drinks were spilled, I was slowly becoming a mess. At about 1am, Courtney and the group was preparing to leave and I was planning on going with them, but my co-workers convinced me to stay and go get food. They proposed the idea of Moca Salsa, so I decided to stay as one of them promised to drive me home. So I parted ways with my friends and left for the munchies and more drunken mishaps.

There were about 6 of us, and I was happy to still be able to see them due to the fact that I quit nearly 5 months ago. Melissa and I shared a Carne Asada Burrito and we massacred it, along with Josh's fries. After sharing laughs over random quotes and antics, it was time to head home. Josh was nice enough to drive me home, and we had a good talk in the car ride. I got home at about 3 I think, and I knew I needed to rest and recover for Night Two.



Drinking Index:

• Espresso Martini
• Cactus Cooler Shots (x2)
  
• Miller Lite Beer
• Jager Bombs (x2)
• Patron Shot
• Southern Comfort with Lime
• Half of a pint left of whatever beer Marty was drinking.

Oh, what a day.

Tears and joy all in one day.

What a day, what a day, what a day.

Life and love have all come my way.

Oh what a day, what a day,

What a day.

The past two days have been lovely and memorable. I am grateful for all the gifts and drinks that were bestowed upon me. Thank you all very much, I'll have a more detailed post with pictures later.

Nice Timing

Some people like to choose this time of year to ignore me. I find it very odd, but it's getting very repetitive and annoying. They've apologized before, but here they are doing it again.

Jennifer Conversations

I now have an IPod Touch.

Thanks Jason.

I don't need much more.

Courtney came over today for a few hours. Christmas Eve went by a little better as I set the phonograph to play the Christmas vinyl she brought for me. We caught up with random facts and old memories, and planned a little bit more for my birthday on Monday.

She brought up a relevant story about her friend in Oklahoma. Her friend lost a loved one two years ago, and most of her friends disappeared soon after. Courtney told me the girl's description of feeling helpless and being dependent, and asked if I understood what she meant. I did, and I still do. I vividly remember how horrible those months were after my father left. Many of my close friends vanished; maybe because they were too afraid of how to endure the pain with me, or maybe they didn't know how to make me feel better. But for that girl and I both, we weren't looking for advices, we weren't looking for inspiration words to move on, we just needed you guys to be there with us.

But I forgave you guys, because it's not an ideal situation to be in with a friend. It was hard knowing what were the right things to do or say. Just remember that avoiding us all together is the worst thing you can ever do.

Blarg, I need to start sleeping earlier.

Merry Christmas everyone.

-Wavid

Two peas in a pod

It's Christmas Eve today. It's Christmas tomorrow, and my birthday two days after.

So far, it looks like I will be spending Christmas Eve with Courtney and my mom at my house. Whoever that doesn't have any family gathering to attend, feel free to come over. I have no idea what I'll be doing on Christmas day, however. The day after will be my brother's party, I'm not sure if I'll be staying for that once I drop off my mother.

As for Monday night, I believe that Courtney and the gang is planning a dinner and bar for me at Downtown Fullerton.

As for Tuesday night, I will be surely getting wasted with Brian and the group somewhere, somehow. Not sure where we are going, but I will end up crashing at someone's. If you want to celebrate my birthday with me this year, just give me a call and you can join us.

I've been feeling karaoke for some time now, I wonder if that can fit in on any of those days.

Marty came over tonight and we had our first jam session in four months. We covered two songs, one folk and one swing/jazz, both in which I do not play any instruments. Marty was on guitar and I was focused on vocals (because they were god damn difficult to sing). Here's one of them, enjoy.

Damn Right

I've got no place to go.

I need to get my mother a gift still.
I think I'm going to visit my father this weekend.
And I just decided that I won't be doing anything special on the 27th this year.

Keep doing the rain dance

Dear Santa,

-A flat wallet with lots of sleeves.
-Speakers for my new desktop.
-A scarf with a cozy pattern.
-Cotton or leather fingerless gloves.
-Soft carrying case for my camera.
-Sushi and Korean BBQ.
-A meaningful bracelet.
-Tickets to Disneyland.
-A better year in 2011.

-Thanks

My mannerism color is blue.

They're In Love, Where Am I?

Shuffle around the world.

After two weeks, Ashraf's birthday was finally celebrated. The location was the Detroit Bar in Santa Ana. It was an overall good time despite some mishaps early on in the night. Lawrence, Glenn, and I each got a Four Loko; and the taste was a lot more potent than we had expected. Earlier on in the club, plans were changed and I wasn't able to consume as much alcohol as I had planned to, so in turn I became the designated driver. However, being somewhat sober, I was able to meet and remember some interesting people throughout the night.

I had my first cigarette of the year in the patio with Glenn, and a girl by the name of Corinne approached us. She was promoting the DJ by handing out bumper stickers. She decided to take a break and proceeded to start a conversation. It was an easy and outgoing talk, we later took a group picture with her camera.

Next was Chris, this guy was more geared towards Glenn. I entered an already progressive conversation about Krispy Kreme Doughnuts, hahaha. He then proposed a scheme to get-rich quick with the WikiLeaks events. I was pretty positive that he was on some substance other than alcohol.

By 1am, we left and we hunted down In-N-Out. That is where we met the wonderful and fabulous Ravyn. She was hilarious with her witty remarks and sarcastic responses; It was possibly the funnest drive-thru experience I've had. Ashraf and Glenn made the effort into calling the In-N-Out hot-line to compliment Ravyn's excellent service (while we were still in the car waiting for the food, haha).

Oh, I learned how to shuffle! I haven't danced in quite some time, and we all danced for a good hour.

We then headed back to Jocelyn's apartment, where everyone's drunkenness finally kicked in. From Lawrence sniffing spray paint to everyone throwing cards at Jocelyn, I was clearly the only one that was going to consciously witness and remember these moments, lol. By 3.30am, it was time to bid farewell to Jocelyn and her roommate, Lisa. It was a long night, but a good night it was.

Times are different now, it's much harder to have these selected people all get together for one night. Especially when a good friend of ours only comes back for 3 weeks every year. So if you can't cherish these times to celebrate a friend's birthday and let go of the small things that you thought was wrong, then I guess our friendship to you wasn't that strong these past few years.

Two days after Christmas.

Ten days away.
What to do?

Here, take my sweater.

The Way I Am

with Alexis Lee

I'll make it better.

I'm going to have three weeks off of work due to the holidays. Not the most ideal time to be on vacation, but I'll take this offer to redirect myself. Friends are coming home one by one and I am looking forward to the get-togethers. I have been passing the time with the help of music and photography, but it's time for some good conversations. My birthday is in less than two weeks and it looks more and more clear that I will keep it low, if anything at all, this year.

As for Christmas, some friends suggested that I should make CD's of my recordings and give them out as presents. Lmao. I was thinking more towards a homemade dinner.

You forgot your pants again.

Second photoshoot for the weekend. We explored around Melrose and came out pretty pleased with what we discovered. Check out Jocelyn's new haircut!

Half a drink more.

Baby It's Cold Outside

Happy Holidays

From: David and Alexis

First pair of green eyes.

I haven't posted pictures on here for quite some time. I finally got a photoshoot done, and it's with the lovely Megan.






:P

It was during this photoshoot where my car battery committed suicide. So I unexpectedly spent $120 for a new one. :(

The words won't come out right.

Run to me, and I will provide refuge. I promise.

I think I have been playing someone else's role for quite some time now. There shouldn't be anymore pretending. It's two in the morning and all that which fills my mind are regrets. This is sickening, both to the mind and to a third person's view. Others around have labeled me as being mature, responsible, and even wise. But for someone to be all those three things can be called something else; foolish. Based on my actions in the past and having the results now, I was indeed a fool. I have gained nothing.

This all sounds much more depressing than it really is. But I am not being pessimistic, I am just learning.

Looking back, if I just did things for myself once in awhile;
I would've had a direction,
I would've had much more for my mother,
I would've had you.

Who am I to lie, I can't change who I am. What a horrible habit.

Your hair looks swell.

Scheduled two photoshoots and two recording sessions. I'm pretty anxious to get those done.

I started my own drawing club today at work(thanks to Amy). Somehow, the kids all think I am very talented and artistic, so I just role with it, haha. It went well to say the least, I taught them shadowing. I drew a tree with a boy sitting and leaning against it. Not sure where that idea came from, but it wasn't all that bad.

I want to spend one day just cooking food while listening to Christmas music.

Lawrence is coming home this weekend.

You sing too high, asshole.

December 4th:

GOD, this guy has one hell of a voice. I had to lower this song like 8 keys down, haha.

I am not very fond of this song, but it was a request from a friend. I decided to just do half of this song, it was getting frustrating haha.

December 5th:

So I decided to finish the song today.

Grenade

Follow me down...

..to the red oak tree.

As the air moves thick through the hollow reeds.

Where you wait for me there until someone comes to carry me down.

December has always been my favorite month. I used to believe that it was my own month, that it belonged only to me. Things haven't changed really, haha. My birthday is still sandwiched between two of the most cherished holidays of the year. And I still enjoy the cliche settings of this time of year. I think these next three weeks will be good.

Gyup, it's list time.

Things to do in December:

• Complete two planned photoshoots.
• Find a part-time job for the weeks I have off at Think Together
• Record a plethora of songs, one being with Hannah.
• See the city Christmas lights in Rancho.
• Change my bedroom curtains.
• Build strong and close friendships with certain new friends.
• Research and decide on where and which program to go for my Masters & Credentials.

This seem reasonable enough to accomplish. They don't inquire much money or resources, only the will to get it done.

Cold, Kind, and Lemon Eyes

I have decided to head back into school. The direction is there, not exactly knowing which direction, but at least I see the road. I took the first step and registered for the CBEST. I don't mind being with kids, I actually enjoy it to say the least. So I will be heading towards social work, more specifically education. Perhaps teaching or counseling, we shall see.

Christmas is near, and sadly to say I won't be playing Santa this year. My situation with money hasn't changed a bit since the last time I've ranted on here about it. Unlike the previous year, I will be bare of presents and gifts for you all. I apologize in advance.

I still have photos to upload for the months of October and November! I've been doing a lot of work in my room lately. After a few days of configuration, my computer is now fully organized. My room has been retouched as well. I cleaned out my drawers and closet; found some nostalgic items. This place feels comfortable for me again.

Downloading frenzy.

I am now back into the circulation of the music world.

Up, up, here we go.

Rocketeer

I couldn't sing today, I'm coming out of a cold.

Lets get back on track.

The past 4 days have been a complete blur. Let me try to chronologically place the following events.

Wednesday

2pm-8pm - Griffith Park for the taping of Conan.

9pm-11pm - Gathered the remaining materials for Wongsgiving

Thursday

7am-10am - Annual Chick's Sporting Goods softball game.

New drinking record- Three screwdrivers before 9am.

10am-Noon - Sobered up at Brian's House

Noon-1pm - Bought ingredients for Turkey Sausage Alfredo Pasta.

1pm-5pm - Nap

6pm-8pm - Thanksgiving dinner with family. Hot pot dining in L.A.

8pm-Midnight - Camped out at Best Buy.

Friday

Midnight-5am - Camping out Continued.

5am-7am - Intense shoving and long lines insued. New computer purchased.

8am-2pm - Long overdue sleep.

3pm-4pm - Took mom to the newly open Dollar Tree down the street.

4pm-6pm - Decorate and prepare for Wongsgiving.

Setting up Christmas lights, washing tables and chairs.

Cooking Turkey Sausage Alfredo Pasta

6pm-11pm - Wongsgiving

11pm-Midnight - Cleaning up

Saturday

Midnight-3am - Configuring the new HP desktop.

3am-10am - Sleep

11am-Noon - Mowed the lawn. Frontyard and Backyard.

1pm-3pm - Went to the bank.

Then to Target, a wifi adapter was needed for my desktop.

4pm-5pm - Went to Best Buy. Bought the wront adapter at Target.

6pm - I have internet!

7pm-9pm - Went to Walmart with mom and Jason.

They forced me to open up a Walmart Credit Card.

Returned the wrong adapter at Target.

9pm-Midnight - Remodeling my room.

Midnight-present time - Surfing the web, finally. :)

Back on the network.

I'll be getting a computer this Friday. That means I'll start blogging again soon.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

What a bad year.

I usually don't like keeping secrets. I dislike keeping things to myself. But there is something that no one will ever know about, because it simply too shameful for me to reveal. I am extremely disappointed in myself, and my life will be forever reflected upon it.

Good morning.

I woke up to my mother playing the piano this morning.

Here's how it goes

A blister on my thumb, I'm far away from home.
You're as deceiving as they come, as they say.
A hundred bottles done, the sun is burning brightly.
My hand is feeling numb, this feeling of sway.

I've seen it all before, this poison in my skin.
We are the enemies of war, it reaps my soul.
No matter where I stay, you'll find your way around me.
The miles and miles and miles, mean nothing at all.

They mean nothing at all.

Shades of brown..

..comes to my mind when the month of November is among us. I was a zombie this past weekend for Halloween, it was a fun get-up. There are no pictures though. The kids in my class were also very adorable, I'll upload those pictures later since I have no computer. I believe I should be starting my new job next week, well, I hope.

I usually have a list of things I want to do and accomplish for the month, but nothing comes to mind...

Lets see:

• Second Wongsgiving
• New computer/Black Friday
• New job/more money
• Utilize my gym pass, once again.

It ain't that bad.

This whole ordeal with no computer/internet isn't so bad. I am doing rather fine in filling my time with other activities. Halloween is next week, I might actually dress up this year and attend a party. I haven't gone to a Halloween party in years. My class will be dressing up on Friday, I will be bringing my camera for that.

I opened up both a debit and credit card with Chase. I am slowly building my credit.

I am still waiting on the final preparations with the new job

Rose and it's Thorn.

That's the name of the song I wrote yesterday. It's rather folky, I'm not sure if I like it.

I think I landed my second job as well. I am going to be a SES Tutor. They pay extremely well and I hope this all works out.

I also got cited for a Fix It Ticket the other day for my front license plate and my front tinted windows.

I hate last minute flakers.

As for my current job, I've realized that these people will be the nicest co-workers I will ever work with.

That's all for now.

Home, Work, P90x, Home

Things have been very quiet and simple lately. I just play guitar, watch old movies, work out, and work. I thank Brian and Glenn for letting me use the internet whenever necessary.

I have a job interview coming up on Wednesday. It's another tutoring position. Hopefully it becomes my second job, that way it will keep me occupied for the time being. I am slowly repaying my credit card and bills, while also saving up for a computer for Black Friday.

I haven't been seeing that many faces lately, just the few people that have been consistent. Halloween is coming up soon, I don't know what I'll be doing, let alone dressing up.

I might as well.

So my laptop has finally given up on me. It won't start back up without it freezing. So all I have is about 30 minutes of online time a day, which is spent at Glenn's house before I head to work. I use that time to check my mail, my bank, and my facebook. No more surfing and lurking. I'll buy a new laptop on Black Friday, with the money I don't have.

I'll use this time to do things that I have pushed back on. Perhaps improving on my guitar or piano, or on my photography.

Note to self.

The past should be treated as an experience, not a burden.

Please do me a favor.

All the negative emotions that have been bestowed upon you should not be released on others. If you want to release it out into the world, I will be glad to be the one who will help you resolve the tension. But don't just expect us to understand what's going on by putting out your attitude without warning. I have my own problems to deal with and I would love for someone to share with me the ranting in a conversation. Control your temper, let other things and people with good vibes help tame it. Don't ruin their good run because you are having a bad one.

And we'll linger on.

Always Be My Baby

It's cold outside.

The sound of raindrops help me relax, it helps me mediate back to being content. Although I am financially destitute, I am enjoying the littlest things in life.

Just say it.

"...ok, im going to just go ahead and say it."

"what?"

"sometimes...being old friends is hard.
I mean, timing is everything."

"yeah.."

"I...."

Connect the bridges

Your friends are a huge part of your life, especially when you believed you have met your other half. A relationship will be hard to endure if both ends exclude themselves from their friends. You should know what I mean by now. I've told you countless times, but you just shrug it off. It makes me sad that you don't show the effort in wanting us to meet her. Whenever I meet someone new and significant in my life, I always have them meet my friends when the time arises. That way I could see if they would get along, and to see what they think from a third person's perspective. There are things that will make me blind in seeing the flaws or potential problems, but that's what my friends are for. If you keep it up and never bring this person around, I will guarantee that we will start having nonchalant feelings towards her just like her friends have that feeling towards you now. You are letting this one slowly become your first relationship all over again, and I am sure you don't want that. In all seriousness, it is all up to you if you want your friends to be her new friends as well.

But overall, don't think too much about anything else, you have my word that this will all work out in the end.

Sixth Grade

Hours of playing Final Fantasy 7 and watching first-generation Pokemon, I have traveled back in time to the year 1999.

Phantom of the Opera tonight.

"If it's okay with you."

I haven't done a photoshoot in a long while now. This time, I was fortunate to have more than one subject.

Since the music began

Must you dance every dance
with the same fortunate man?
You have danced with him since the music began.
Won't you change partners and dance with me?

Must you dance quite so close
with your lips touching his face?
Can't you see I'm longing to be in his place?
Won't you change partners and dance with me?

Ask him to sit this one out and while you're alone,
I'll tell the waiter to tell him he's wanted on the telephone.
You've been locked in his arms ever since heaven-knows-when.
Won't you change partners and then,
you may never want to change partners again.

Prepare for trouble.

I've been re-watching season one of Pokemon. I'm half way through.

I forgot that season one had 84 episodes!

I guess hanging out with these kids are making me become one again.

An oldie revisited

Fire

Briamy Bash

Yesterday was an eventful day. It started off horrible and probably the worst day I've had since a long while. I was in a bad mood from then on. Then we all got ready for Brian and Amy's birthday event at Club United.

A good majority of us had our hesitations on how this clubbing event will turn out, haha. Nonetheless, it was the most fun I've had in a long while.

Let's catch up.

So I recently shaved my head to an all-around size one.
I'm satisfied with the result.

Depending on how the audience takes it, I might keep this length for a long while.

I've also started working out to P90X the past two weeks.
I'm satisfied with the results as well.

I've been watching over 23 seven-year-olds and they are wasting my youth away. I can never get them to all shut up for more than 3 seconds. What am I doing wrong!? But, however, one girl said that I was the best teacher ever, so I'm alright, haha.

I'm in the middle of a week of birthdays, and it's been awhile since I attended to clubs and parties.

I'm now contemplating about getting a piercing, but that's a long ways away.

I have a huge debt yet to be paid off, and my first paycheck is still weeks away.

Phantom of the Opera in two weeks.

Taking the proper steps.

Goodbye!

Mr. David

That's what they call me at room 22. My class full of 2nd and 3rd graders, and there are 20 to 25 of them. Full of unburned energy and attitude, they are a hard bunch to control. I can't give out any signs of weakness and vulnerability, or else they will walk all over me.

Not all of them are wild and disrespectful of course, there are a handful of them that are absolutely adorable. One girl wanted me to sit next to her while she reads me a short story she wrote. Two students asked if I was married, then asked if I had a girlfriend, then asked if I was available, haha. Kids are devious, but still pure at heart. I'm happy to be surrounded by them.

This is my curious case.

I am often curious to see how much my friendship weighs in value from the perspective of my friends. A lot of you give off that nonchalant emotion that simply fills me with frustration. It might be unintentional, and I might be acting immature, but I am doing much more than any of you in keeping whatever closeness we have.

I have also been ill-tempered lately when I plan out events. People take it for granted and they only acknowledge my actions if something goes wrong. We all celebrate when it all goes according to plan, but I am the one to blame when something goes unfortunate.

This message is to a lot of people, not to one person, or to one group. I usually do not say or view these things about my friends, but my mind has been all over the place lately, and none of you are helping. I am disappointed in myself in writing this.

I wanted to leave a lot earlier, but that would've spoiled the vibe for a rest of the group. I stayed as long as I could.

Too keep it simple, if you simply do not care about my hospitality towards our relationship, then I will no longer waste my fucking time.

Autumn leaves

Lets hope this that month will turn things around. September is a very cozy time of year. The fair comes back to town, the weather is picture-perfect, and there are lots of birthdays to be celebrated. Speaking of birthdays, times are different this year around. I won't be able to spend that much compared to last year, so I am apologizing in advance.

I start my new job tomorrow.

Plans for September:

• L.A Fair
• Phantom of the Opera
  
• Find a full-time job
• Celebrate 5 birthdays

Day Ten

Day Ten: One confession.

I liked you, a lot, actually.

Day Nine

Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.

1.╭∩╮(o `︿´ o)╭∩╮

2. <@:)

Don't break just yet.

I've been unemployed for over a month now, and I have never been more stressed out than I am now. Working throughout all of college shuffling through school projects and nine-hour shifts were nothing compared to the responsibilities that are bestowed upon me now. I feel so useless, and I feel like I am falling behind.

Graduate school is always a path to follow, but saying it is much easier. I need to sacrifice a lot to even be considered by the schools, and my grades weren't top notch to begin with. I would love to obtain a Masters, but I wouldn't even know what field to choose to start.

As for a career, I've been searching. And believe me, I am registered to over 5 career finder sites. Nothing intrigues me, and for the ones that show a little hope, I fail at their interviews. Although I am a newly hired tutor, it is still Part-time, and it will not fulfill my responsibilities around here. The bills are coming up and my accounts are reaching its end, I am scrimmaging for cash. I hate being in this situation.

I am a jealous person, but not for the typical monetary things. I am jealous of my friends' lifestyles. I can not afford to go out everyday, and I can not simply just leave my house whenever I want. My mother often gives me lectures about how I am irresponsible, and how I should stay home more and handle family issues. I get the idea of having to watch over the house because I am the only man in the house now, but when I look at my friends and the amount of freedom they have, I get envious. My mother doesn't work, and she doesn't drive, so it's tough for her to stay busy at home all the time. I see my friends stressed out about love and about school. You know, the typical things that a person in their early twenties should worry about. I often think it is unfair that I have all these extra burdens, but I can't break just yet.

I am done complaining, everyone has their own problems, and this is mine.

Day Eight

Day Eight: Three turn ons.

1. Your scent.
2. Your height.
3. Your voice.

This challenge is getting lame.

Driveway Adventures

It is very common to find Glenn loitering around my driveway after midnight. However, tonight was a more productive session. We decided to use stencils and spray paint on a huge wooden plank. It was fun, and it marks the first of many Driveway Adventures to come!

Day Seven

Day Seven: Four turn offs.

1. Being unreasonably lazy. From avoiding to get a job to not cleaning up their rooms.
2. Being shallow. Always talking about materialistic things and sees things in one direction only.
3. Having a poor sense in fashion. How she dresses surprisingly creates the whole vibe for me, haha.
4. Having a poor sense of humor. If she laughs at the things that I find repulsive, or vice versa, then it will never work, haha.

Day Six

Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).



My mother, my three nephews and my niece.

Day Five

Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.

1. Choosing Cal Poly Pomona over everywhere else.
2. Working at the Swap Meet.
3. Learning guitar at the age of 19, and not sooner.
4. Letting some people go because of my pride.
5. Ignoring morals and falling for certain temptations.
6. Being so quiet and shy when the moment comes.

Day Four

Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. My direction in life, whether which career I'll land
or if I should go to graduate school.
2. If I just give up everything right now and pursue in music,
how far would I make it?
3. I need to meet new people, I want to get to know someone
from scratch all over again.
4. I often wonder how Lilli-anne, Calvin, Tristen, and Taylor
will be when they grow up.
5. My father.
6. Who I would gladly give up my life for, and there's a few.
7. Which one of my friends would miss me the most if I was to disappear?

Day Three

Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart.

1. Takes me to a show.
2. Has a beautiful voice.
3. Knows how to play a musical instrument.
4. Tries to communicate with my mother.
5. Introduces me to all of her friends and family.
6. Comes with me to Europe.
7. To hear her friends saying, "I've heard a lot about you."
8. Lets me pay for her dinner, while she pays for my lunch.

Think Together

I am now a Substitute Program Leader.

Day Two

Day Two: Nine things about yourself.

1. I am six foot tall, weighing in at 155 lbs.
2. I am 22 years old, born and raised in Upland.
3. I have a bachelors degree from Cal Poly Pomona.
4. I played varsity basketball for Chino High School.
5. I love the sounds of an acoustic guitar and a grand piano.
6. I am independent, but I'm also too locked up to myself.
7. I try to act as this self-righteous person that I am not.
8. I do care about what others think of me sometimes, sadly.
9. I also have the coolest friends around.

Day One

I have been noticing these "challenges" on Tumblr and they remind me of the myspace bulletin surveys. My blog will be booked for the next ten days.

Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. You have been through so much, and it seems as if you are all I have left to be kept sane in this world. I will never do anything to hurt you nor I will never let anyone hurt you. I can not ask for a stronger mother, I love you.

2. You are so gay sometimes, I'm surprise that you actually have a girl for a girlfriend, haha. Thanks for being there for a majority of my spontaneous spending buddy. Even if half of those were a waste of money, the other half was worth it.

3. You and I will eventually get big with our dual acoustic band. It's really settling to see you going for your masters in Chapman. You're gonna do great things man.

4. I wish you the best of luck in your AmeriCorps venture. Although the imagery of you being dispatched to Denver kills me with laughter everytime, I am still happy for you. You are the reliable one in our group, you know that?

5. I meant every word when I asked you to be my little sister that day. For reasons I can't explain, I feel really comfortable around you. Even though you dislike conveying your problems to me, I just hope you feel the same way.

6. I'm waiting for December 11th buddy. It will be a great three weeks, like always. You know, about a month ago, I gave joining the Air Force some serious consideration. I probably felt the same way you felt when you decided to join. I seemed lost and useless, and I wanted to leave. Either way, get out and travel man!

7. As you always remind me, I used to "stalk" you on myspace. Who would've guessed from that one message I sent you, we would be good friends till now? I can't stress how much you deserve to not worry about what others think about you, but I know you can't help it, and you never listen to me, haha. But take it from me, you are a overall great person.

8. You seem to know the most about me, but yet we've known each other the shortest. I haven't seen you for over a week now, what's going on? Why aren't you at my driveway and why aren't we talking about our problems? And yes, this paragraph is about you, Glenn, so no need to ponder, haha.

9. I haven't seen you in years, but I think about you from time to time. I hope you are staying out of trouble. We had our falling out, but it was fun while it lasted. I drove by your house the other day, and the pure thought of you father still scares me.

10. Hi, why do we do these things to each other? I know you aren't enjoying this either, but it still happens. I used to think these things were fate, but I don't believe in those things anymore. We had our chances, but maybe I'm just talking on my behalf. You are a sweet person, time just wasn't on our side.