It's been a long day.

But I can't sleep. My mind won't seem to stay focused.

Past events have ruined the way I handle things now, and it feels like I can't move past it. It's been a series of recycled events and it's impeding my progress. To be honest, I don't have that confidence anymore because I have never experienced that relationship. Two months was the longest, and even that was a petty attempt. Others come and go, but two of them managed to leave a mark. I guess I just had a bad start, so the starting line will always be intimidating to me.

So what am I trying to say? No idea, I just want some sleep.