A messy composition

I've been thinking about my old friends a lot lately, and I miss them all very much.  No matter how much they have changed for the better or worse, I still truly miss them.  Christine sent me a birthday postcard (reminding me her outrageously neat writing), and I wish she was here to record with me again.  Lawrence will be home in one more month, so I'm anxious to welcome him home again (for good this time).  I had the fortunate opportunity to grab a drink with Sherman last weekend.  Despite how much he has changed due to some unfortunate variables, I still sense his old and spiteful self that we all related to.  This past winter break was festive, and Courtney played a big part of it.  Knowing the fact that I won't be able to see her for 7 or 8 months is unsettling, :(.  I was at Cal Poly the other day, and I had flashbacks of the places where I would meet up with people on campus as I walked by them.  Suddenly, Michelle texted me asking I was on campus. I felt like I was in college again.  A few weeks ago, Elias came by my house with a big smile, bearing equally big news.  That boy is getting married!  I've known him for eleven years, and he will be relocated to Missouri.

So many people come and go, but only a few manages to linger on to make a impact in shaping my life.

I used to be so much more social, making new friends was second natured.
I used to be so much more adventurous, with consequences neglected.

I don't go to shows anymore.
I don't drive out to new places anymore.
I don't make the same effort anymore.

This blog is turning out to be all over the place with no structure at all.  I hate that, and yet I'm pretty positive that I will just leave it as it is.  My mom asks me why some of my old friends don't come over anymore, and sometimes I don't even have an answer for her.

I just want to throw a massive party and have everyone that I have once adored to attend, haha.